Should have gone for a romnatic comedy

Really should have. Came back from a movie with C : Lord of War. Quite terribly draggy, and somehow I found the language clichéd, exaggerated, enhanced by Nicholas Cage’s accent. The message it was trying to put through echoes some of P’s all-time cynical comments about world politics, the US and UN…people who profess to do good and point fingers at others are oft the biggest crooks. The movie painted these ideas in images. And it was mildy disturbing. I left the cinema in what felt like a daze, from pure exhaustion as well as mental unease.
I’d been close to the dumps the past few days. No chocolate binging nor tvb marathon could draw me out of it. Hmm…Anyway, I thought a trip to the cinema would help me relax. Let the night out be something to look forward to, let the experience itself lift my spirits. But as you can tell, it didn’t work out. The movie, in its cynical, criticising manner, got me turning a finger at myself. The walk home got me thinking, perhaps a bit too much.
But all that thinking had some benefit to it: It shook me up a little and reminded me why I’m here – my financial realities, my priorities.
When I was much younger, I used to like this movie called Anne of Green Gables a lot. Anne's teacher had a piece of advice for her : Tomorrow is always a fresh start, with no mistakes. Such idealism is no good, I may say. Idealism has made me ill-prepared for the vagaries of the real world. And a will to be perfect makes it all the more unbearable when it isn’t. Still learning to reach for the stars yet not feel too bad about falling on the clouds.
I read in a friend's site that it is true that other people contribute to our happiness, but we shouldn’t depend on others for our happiness. I’m also still a learner in that department.
Ooh, this has been one depressing entry. Nite now!

regular weekday

No wonder bro loves fast food so much. It can be addictive. Diggin in to oily, flavour-packed chips and fried chicken is such a treat : )… unhealthy as it is. Well, that was my dinner >.<.
Finally started training with Gilds today. It’s a local catering agency, which S comments we don’t have 緣 (yuen – predestined relationship) with lol. You see, prior to this, we’ve made two other trips to Gilds, and it had rained every single time! Today’s the worst of all. It seriously rained cats and dogs!! My jeans were drenched to the knee. And the wind…
Survived the Insurance seminar today. Should be getting back into combat mode for tomorrow’s Employment seminar, but gosh I’m gettin exhausted. Help! Laziness settin in haha. Can’t wait for the weekend : D

Human beings are made for many things. But loneliness is not one of them.

That last line of the episode of Desperate Housewives I just watched really hit me. I’d say I’ve made fine progress from last year, but I can never admit that I can lead an ‘independent’ life like this.
Well, on a lighter note, I managed to get the tickets for my weekend away next week. Will be goin to Bristol, Bath, London (yes!) and Brighton. And…I got the tickets at a price cheaper than expected. Last night, I went online and called National Rail, plus Virgin Trains to ask for the ticket prices, and it was supposed to cost me £10+ more than this! A nice coincidence also that M will be in London on the same weekend, so 4 of us girls who did internship together can meet up. Yay!
Leesh suggested in his site to try typing "failure" on google and then click on "I'm feeling lucky".Surprise surprise at what web page popped up. So I got curious and typed in "beautiful" next time around. I was brought to a website called 'China The Beautiful - Chinese Art and Literature'. Hmm....

yoga

I still taste illness in my mouth – you know, that dry, ‘bland’ taste whenever one gets down with a fever or something. Dun feel like popping a Panadol for every little thing. Hope it wears off over the weekend…
Went for a yoga class at Sugden Sports Centre this afternoon. Honestly, the only sense of fulfilment it did give me was for the fact that I’ve finally got myself exercising. I thought the instructor talked too much. Havin gotten used to G’s (whom I took lessons under, together with WY back in Ipoh) tranquil music and soothing tone of voice, this guy’s matter-of-fact manner didn’t go down too well. He’d offer an explanation for every stretch we are to perform, giving us the low-down on which muscles it would work/what organs it may affect yada yada… Yup, you sensed right. I felt quite irritated. Cos it made it difficult for me to concentrate, was distracting, too much noise. Well but I must admit it can be useful information. I just couldn’t find the time/multitasking powers to digest it. Perhaps it just takes some getting used to. Initially, I was similarly confused and frustrated when G went on with the steps, seldom stopping to explain or clearly telling us when to inhale/exhale. But WY explained to me that in that way, she makes us to put in more effort + determination to learn. And G did say that with yoga, you should go at your own pace. So I had to make a conscious effort to push myself yet know when to stop, understanding it takes perseverance and not bullish forcefulness. 萬事起頭難 (Many things start on a difficult note). By the second lesson, I felt more fulfilled. All said, I still find this guy’s talking distractting haha, so I’ll attend a class under another instructor next week.

And the radio distracts me.. 988樂色五夜場好好聽啊!

The music on 988fm after midnight is just great! Due, to the time difference between Malaysia and UK, I always happen to tune in to their late night slot : 樂色五夜場(ngok sik ng ye cheong). Here they spin old favourites as well as the latest hits and lovely new songs. *Sigh* Me supposed to be preparing for seminar but so distracted by the music and can’t help but talk about it here. lol….

some of my favourite things..

Had a nice lunch today, at Taipan. C and I originally went there for the congee (speaking of which, I just lurve congee served at dim sum places - esp when they come with 'yau chau kuai' - : p got no idea wat they're called in English), as both of us didn't feel too well. But all they had was 'teng chai zhuk'- congee with pork n pig innards (erm..) so we ordered other stuff instead. The food was goooood. Had my all-time fave, custard pau (it is better than those at New Pearl City (another chinese restaurant in Manchester) , though some of my friends will beg to differ), this cheung fun stuffed with scallops n vege (n accompanied by chilli oil : p), and steamed dumplings (ala prawn dumplings) with vegetarian filling. Ahhhh : D
Watched a great movie on Saturday. Pride and Prejudice, starrin Kiera Knightley. It was suitably English.The language was rich - Lizzy and Darcy's sharp verbal exchanges reminded me of Claudio n Beatrice in Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing. All in all, I enjoyed it lots, and the giggles, laughter and anticipation I shared with S. Would be real fun to enjoy it with my girl friends from back home in living room too.Yeah, it's quite a girl's movie. But who knows? Oh, and Lizzy's two younger sisters never failed to irritate me! 'Futt futt dei' is how I would describe them. And Darcy is cute haha...such gentle eyes >.<